It's so hard to find any time anymore to do anything. Maybe only on the weekends. I wish I had more time and more minutes on my phone to keep up on life "back home" and I wish there was a "second" Anita to run all of my errands! Things are normal here, for anyone who cares. I swear the weeks go by so freakin quick and for a moment there I thought I all but missed the end of summer, and skipped right into fall, but now I see it warming up again. Don't get me wrong I love the fall, its the best time of year if you ask me. But I wanna be sure to enjoy it fully! So my GM said again today that he is assured of the fact that he has no problem with me being the mid-manager the 10-volume. Even if that means only 10-5, and even if that only means monday through friday. So I am not going to push the isssue of trying to get some Saturday shifts in, and I certainly am not offering up cloising shifts. I hope I still end up with enough hours throughout the week, by helping out on the line some days, and putting away the truck two days a week, but either way this just means more time for the boy!! Speaking of which I gotta run, must get him from day care. Adios

I feel like for at least a moments time I can breathe again, why...because the work week is over and I have all the bills in the mail...it's a good feeling. And I have completed my first two days of training which I guess have gone fairly well. My GM says I did a great job my first day out and aparently I think I may have made a good impression on my AD as well. Thats fine and good..Just hope all this works out okay. Since I have been at this Applebees I have been extreamly gaurded, making sure to stay as impersonable as posible. I do not like to share too much with anyone for fear of it turning around and biting me in the butt. But the few small things I have trusted in a few managers have already blown up in my face, and I get the feeling that I am not much liked in my position. Not that I care so much, but it sure would be nice to work with grown ups for once. Guess I have to remind my self that this is the way the resturant buisness opporates. I am actually excited about seeing where all of this leads me. I promise myself I am going to re enroll in classes (most likely an online course) this winter, and from there I will see where my free time sets, I know I am certainly not ready to give up any free time with my son for this company. But maybe I will someday open up more time, somewhere, just to get a better position. Just need that money incentive!!! Speaking of which, my man got another raise this week. I know its because he deserves it. He is a damn good/hard worker, and shouldn't be surprised that they recognize that. And yet he always seems surprised  . But I am jealsous, I want that recognition too, well in the kitchen I mean. I know I am getting it with this management position, but I want them to see I can do my "real" job well too. Ah well, maybe at review time. Anywho, time to go. Bed people are on their way out again today, and JOn and I have an adventure to tackle! Fishies here we come

Not really sure what to write about, little overwhelmed this moment. I just went through and did an overview on all my bills. Not like its anything new but I cannot believe how much I owe. I swear to you all, I have always been playing a game of catch up, but this is unreal. I checked on my cell phone bill today, $240! Can you believe it, for one month? That's a bit insane. And the price of cable/internet is no better. So what ever I guess I go back to having not a single dime in the bank, I just want to make sure everything gets paid off. Thank heavens my man loves me and we work through these issues. I used to hate being financially strained, no matter how good or bad it was I hated life. But even now things are never too bad, because I am happy everyway else. Its the simple pleasures in life for me now I guess! Ah well, gotta get going and pick up munchkin butt. Then pay my $240 cell phone bill, $180 insurance bill, $320 car payment, $90 cable bill, $165 day care bill, and whatever heat and electric cost this month! YIKES!! I am broke

Just wanted to say hi to "everyone", my boyfriend finds it so funny that i have an on-line journal. A personal private thing, that ANYONE can read or share, hahaha. But thats the best part, because I do not know anyone personally so it doesn't matter, but its nice to see there are people out there in the same predicaments as myself! Well anywho like I said, short an sweet, time to go get ready for bed.

see ya

I made up my mind on something huge yesterday. I decided to not take the management position offered to me by my job. I went in to find my hours had been cut, yet again. When I inquired why my manager told me it was "to prepare you for the big leap" and it wasn't until after we had our meeting that I understood what that meant. It was an altimadum (if thats the word and how you spell it). I was given the option to take a so-called management position almost immediatley, it would technically start in 7 days from the "chat" and it would include a pay increase of a dollar and a quarter, and a guaranteed 45 hours of work a week. That's a huge bonus in itself, more green to take home every payday is always a good thing, but not when it comes with strings attached. And mine would come with a whole spool. I would have to give up my current availability, and take on an "open availability" which pretty much means I work whenever they need me to. That includes late night shifts, long day shifts, and weekend shifts. To me I hear no more time with your son. It's bad enough I already spend so little time with him. And lets not forget...I never wanted to be a manager in the first place. The place isn't where I see myself in 20 years, let alone 5. So I have to go in tomorrow and explain myself. Hope that they give me some of my hours back, and pray that come evaluation time, they consider me for a hefty pay raise. My son is way too important to me to be missing out on all the time. And its nice to have time with my boyfriend whenever too!

Speaking of which him and I have plans for this weekend ( a family reunion on my dad's side), then next weekend we are going to attempt to go sailing and fishing. The weekend after that and then the weekend after that (hehehe did I lose you yet?) I hope to take the away trip for just him and I to Ann Arbor and then all of us to go to my Grandma's cabin up north. Busy busy month...I love it!

Glad to hear everyone seems to be doing okay, even when bad situations arrive...but if any of you need ( and you know who you are) give me a call.